A Secret

You want to know a secret? Until recently I hadn’t been in a corporate worship service in a long time, about two months actually. I didn’t realize it had been so long until my husband vocalized the time frame to a pastor we met. Although actively pursuing community, we hadn’t attended a worship service for a while due to my husband’s new work schedule. Usually he doesn’t get to bed on a Saturday night until at least 4:00 AM (I guess that would technically make it Sunday morning). 

As opposed to other times in my life this difficult season has not pushed me away from God but drawn me closer to him. It has caused me to be more intentional about seeking true Christian community. It has also caused me to ask many questions about the role and function of the church (meaning Christ followers not necessarily a building or service on a Sunday). It has also made me wonder why so few questioned our absence.

Additionally we have been seeking a new local faith community to be a part of. That search has been an interesting, difficult, exciting, and sometimes scary journey. What I can say definitively is that being away from corporate worship for a season has taught me how important it is but certainly not a determination of our spiritual standing with God.

Thanks for letting me share my secret. Do you have any thoughts on the role of corporate worship in the life of the believer? Have you ever been away from the ‘church’ for a season of your life?

129. Worshipping with other believers at New City

130. Hard eucharisteo: not getting what I want

131. A walk Downtown with the hubby

132. An unexpected trip to the farmer’s market

133. Weather cool enough for a caramel apple cider

When Trusting is Tough

Today it’s hard to trust. I have spent months even years, being uncertain about the direction my life is going. Today it all came rushing at me. I’m scared. I don’t know what’s going to happen next. Is my husband going to start working on his Master’s degree? Will we move? Will we buy a house? What does our job future’s look like? What is our ministry and family future going to be?

Most importantly, why is it not easier to trust the God of the universe? He is God! I should have no problem  trusting him. I wonder if there is some great sin in my heart that gets in the way of me trusting him fully. I know I do not like uncertainties. Should it even be easy to trust God? Does it perhaps strengthen our faith to struggle to trust him? Is the fact that trust doesn’t always come easy good for us? I know I don’t have the answers to any of these questions.

Are there areas where you’ve struggled to trust God? How do you seek to trust him more even when it’s hard?

He is Inescapable

I used to be one of those people who hated any talk of Christmas before December 1^st. I didn’t like seeing the decorations in stores before the Florida heat had dissipated or hearing Christmas carols before my Thanksgiving turkey. But several years ago I read the quote below and God started me on an journey of embracing Christmas all year long.

“In the month of December, he strikes both the secular and sacred spheres of life with sledgehammer force. Suddenly, Jesus is everywhere, his presence inescapable. We may accept him or reject him, affirm him, or deny him, but we cannot ignore him. Of course he is proclaimed in speech, song, and symbol in all Christian churches. But he rides every red-nosed reindeer, lurks behind every Barbie doll, and resonates in the most desacralized “Season’s Greetings.” Remotely or proximately, he is toasted in every cup of Christmas cheer. Each sprig of holly is a hint of his holiness. Every cluster of mistletoe is a sign he is here.” -Brennan Manning, Above All

That quote by Manning is by far one of my favorite Christmas quotes. It reminds me of the triumphal entry in Luke 19 where Jesus admonishes the Pharisees that if Christ followers won’t praise him then even the very rocks would cry out to their King. 

Let us remember that we need the Christ child all year long, maybe even more so than at Christmas. We need him in the spring to remind us of the suffering of the cross and the brutality of humanity. We need him in our darkest hour to remind us that God is not a stranger to human pain. We need the child even in the bounty of the fall to remind us that the God of the universe humbled himself and came down to earth with nothing.

In our comings and goings, wrapping and unwrapping, baking and eating, let us remember Jesus. Let us truly live like this season is about his birthday. May we remember that every Christmas light, every wild shopper, and every poinsettia exists for his glory alone.

 

115. Answered prayers

116. God’s grace through family gatherings

117. My little brother getting married to a great girl

118. A new sister-in-law

119. An hour with a special friend

120. A free hairdo for the wedding

121. Hard eucharisteo: an unexpected financial crunch

122. Extra time with my wonderful husband